Bullshit...

Good things to those who wait. Which genius thought that up? Nothing good come to those who wait. Im convinced that good things arent meant to happen for me. Ive been fighting for everything I have in my life and all that Ive accomplished. And here I am at 25 working a dead end job with no boyfriend and no friends. Im a good person. Yet the universe continues to shit on me. When does it let up? When does all my hard work pay off? When do I get a break from the people in my life hurting me? A person who has everything would tell me life is what you make it. Ok fine, Ive been hesitant to leave my home state, but since I have no fucking reason to be here, Im out. I can be miserable and alone on the beach just as easily as I can sit here in the city miserable and alone. Im done trying to have relationships with people. I manage to fuck it up every time. I try to hard or Im not trying hard enough. And I cant figure out the happy medium the rest of the population has found. So, Ill just be alone from now on. Im alone 90% of the time anyways, does the other 10% make a difference? I wish I knew what I did in a past life to deserve the shit show that is my life right now.